School, Work, Sleep.
& Repeat the cycle.
These new method of life for me has been going on for 1 week. And its sure was tiring. But never shall I complain or rant about it here, ’cause its my decision. Period. I don’t want you guys go hating me for this.
Missing out alot on friends. Have to passed on alot of outings just to satisfy my needs to work. Or shall I say, no other options than working? Sorry guys. I know I’m changed lately. I’m not changed. I’m just being more hardworking. So bear with me for a moment while I get the tempo back on track. I just need your support, that’s all.
Don’t mention about family. Weekends are like quarreling and fighting days for my parents. I had enough of it. Lucky for me, I have work at night. At least I can run away from those moments where I don’t really in favour with. My parents; let them be. Its his decision to start a new family. He handles it alone. Sorry Dad, its up to you now. Every weekend, without fail you would quarrel with her. What’s up with that new hobby of yours, huh? So much of you a changed person. Get things right quickly, Dad. I think its getting out of hand now. If not, I do the amendments myself. I’m not hating you or the decisions you made after mama passed away, I’m just really not feeling what you doing right now. I don’t really know what’s the number 1 motivation playing in your head. Now after Mama passed away, everything changes. Everything.
& now you guys see how troubled my mind is? So I just smile on.
How I wish I could have just stay beside Mama’s grave all my life. I miss you, Mama.
I really do.
